Day 84

"Mares eat oats and does eat oats, and little lambs eat ivy...a kid will eat ivy too, wouldn't you?"
~Gram

Grateful for photos taken

Today is the 10 year anniversary of Gram's death.  It was a hard day for me...I am sure it was harder for my Mom.  I am grateful, for this picture, and for videos taken of Gram and the kids.  Gram only met Rylee.  Regan was 2 months old when she died.  Gram thought "Kailey" was a much better name for Regan than Regan....but, she grew to like the name with our phone calls. 
I am thankful for all the pictures I take.  One day, the pictures you take will be memories of loved ones that you can no longer hug, or call, or laugh with.  A picture is worth a thousand words...but I would give every hundred thousand words back to have her back for one more day.
I talked to Gram about everything.  She was my rock.  She was one of my best friends.  She made everything ok.  No matter what.  I miss her. 



Gram will always be with me...but its just not the same as a hug.  Its just not the same as her voice.  Its just not the same, and it makes me sad.  I would like to hear, "How is my Colleenie..."  one more time.  I guess tonight, I just close my eyes, pray, and tell Gram I would like to talk to her.  She usually is there, but then again, there are a lot of babies to rock in heaven...and that is one of her favorite things to do.  Love you to the moon and back, Gram.  There is not a day that goes by where I don't think about you.
You are forever in my heart, and the twinkle in Mom's eyes...so...I know you are near. 
Love you to the moon....
....and back. 
<3